So, yesterday me and Matt broke up for all of...a few hours..then, he started sending me text messages and i coodnt deal with it, so i told him to come over my house...
And, I dunno what it was about seein him but it just made me realize how much I really love him so we got back together and whatever...But, I'm dtill not sure if I;m happy..Cuz the minute he left I called up the other guy...

I just love Matt soooo much and I dont wanna hurt him...But I dunno how I can't...He's seriously my everything..And, when u get put in a situation like this u'll understand..I mean, I've met other guys before that i kinda liked...but no one like this....We have soo much in a common...I never thought about dumping Matt uintil now...I mean...I wanna end it..but I dotn at the same time..And, I dunno whether it's cuz I love Matt or I dont want things to change...I dont wanan lose him and I kno I wont becuz I know he'll always be there for me asa  friend...But, I duno if I want him as only a friend...God, I am soooooo confused...If u guys only knew...

I am vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear Im right
I swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swear you saw yourself

<3~Andrea :-(